1) AUTOMATIC Every Sunday it comes pouring down Until there is no sky at all In these hollow rooms I move around Ricocheting off the wall Is anybody listening? Would anybody miss me? I think in white noise I talk in static I feel and must react Everything is automatic Every movement on my surface Travels up from underneath Every synapse serves a purpose I am hardwired to the teeth Is anybody listening? Would anybody miss me? I think in white noise I talk in static I feel and must react Everything is automatic 2) MATCHBOOKS Hanging out in Baltimore pawnshops in the cold Seeking out a reservoir of lost or stolen gold Heading down I'm coming down Gather round the radio is playing 'Night Divine' I can hear the angel voices coming in across the wires Falling down I'm falling down If I'm to be the dreamer Then you must be the dream 'Cause I am a believer who believes in what he sees Hanging round the telephone in paper-thin hotels Stealing matchbooks as souvenirs so I won't outrun myself But I'm long gone now I won't be gone long now I'm two weeks out of Denver And a night from New Orleans I'll reach New York by December But for now I'm in between We'll settle down near Memphis Get our hands in solid ground We can raise a little money In a dying country town Just forget about this harbor Move where we can see the stars Get a shitty little place Where everything we see is ours 'Cause I'm breaking down Just take me down But if I'm to be the dreamer Then you must be the dream 'Cause I am a believer Who believes in what he sees If I'm to be the dreamer Then you must whisper me the dream 'Cause I am a believer Who can't believe in anything 3) BUTTERFLY Smoking cigarettes to feel Older than we are To feel the air we breathe We have waited Up to the overpass when your neighbors called the cops Trying to get back to that first night In your quiet laugh I knew that we were lost Just feel the silence sinking in Butterfly in the dead of night Right in front of you Spread my wings and I close my eyes I've been falling October thirty one And angel and a boy who prays to astronauts Stumble up a hill I went up a good son And came down a landslide She went up with lace wings And came down a butterfly . . in the dead of night Right in front of you Spread my wings and I close my eyes I've been falling 4) THE LIFE I'VE GROWN ACCUSTOMED TO Paper mobile spinning round Sixteen years and still no sign of slowing down I would ride it if I could High above the life I've grown accustomed to My letters pile up on the floor Carpeting the room that once was ours And the memories of a boy Too scared to rise above The life we grew accustomed to I swear I swear I loved you more today than yesterday I swear I swear I'll love you more tomorrow And at this rate I'll swear my life away to make you stay A lonely boy who steals love he can't borrow Waking up to afternoon Sit up on the roof and wait until the checks come through Wouldn't wanna disappear 'Cause even that would mean I'd once been here I read the poetry he wrote for you About your lips and the corners of your voice I would match it if I could But what's a simple tune when played into a symphony? I swear I swear I loved you more today than yesterday I swear I swear I'll love you more tomorrow And at this rate I'll swear my life away A lonely boy who steals love he can't borrow 5) ALAN'S POINT Drove you down to Alan's Point Where we used to look for shells Skipping stones into the waves Wishing you weren't with somebody else We built a castle by the water's edge A sacrifice to the rising tide Watched Apollo drown himself And I turned out from the inside I told you that I was in love You asked who I was thinking of Well, here's a clue It was you It's always been you Spinning circles on a neighbor's lawn Adrenaline holds back the tears One more night and you'll be gone To another wasted year So just go But set your clocks by my broken heart So if things don't turn out like you want Then you can meet me back by the water's edge And we can spend that summer like I wanted As your plane was passing overhead I was on the shore again True confessions of a wasted love Scrawled across the sand It said you It's always been you 6) MARIANNE Marianne, why you whisperin'? Why you even talkin'? There's nobody listenin' Marianne keeps a diary Locked up by her bedside But the pages are empty Her daddy's a lawyer With ads on the tv Turnin' pain into money We only watch movies From the 1920s When no one was lonely Some nights she calls me Says 'Gatsby, it's Daisy Just take me away please' We turn the radio up loud Floor the gas and the wheels spin round As Marianne and I go flying She's got names on her mirror Of the boys who have loved her 'Cause she can't stand their pictures She dances like summer Out of fear that it's over In the middle of December When we're out driving We only play love songs With unhappy endings Some nights she calls me Says 'hey, this is Mary I don't wanna be lonely' We turn the radio up loud Floor the gas and the wheels spin round As Marianne and I go flying Marianne's got a mirror Full of boys who have loved her But my name isn't up there 7) ADIOS Making out at the drive-in Hop the fence to lay down in the dark Pointing out constellations Shining down on the trailer park Adios, America Hope you're resting in peace Making out at the motel on Eighth Street Slipping out when the manager comes Calling in to the radio station Telling secrets that we just make up Adios, America Hope you're resting in peace 8) GOODBYE DECEMBER Unplug the telephone When the ringing of the dialtone Becomes the only thing I hear In this graveyard Of razorblades and movie stars I taste the angels of the atmosphere Dive into the bloodshot eyes Where silence breathes and alibis revolve At 15 Ashley Boulevard In the shadows of empty cans Fall letters from my mother's hand You lead along the lies you love Believe in things you've never been Goodbye December, laced with evergreens I've shed my needles 'cause it's time for a change Goodbye to the heavens and the hell between Here's to California and to coming clean Count the scars of best laid plans Best intents and best of friends But still the dreaming keeps me up all night And as the angels disappear 'Just this once' is all I hear Emptiness and afterglow Hey Ma, look how much I've grown Goodbye December, laced with evergreens I've shed my needles 'cause it's time for a change Goodbye to the heavens and the hell between Here's to California and to coming clean 9) TELEVISION I watched TV tonight And waited for a sign That love had not forgotten me I'm not so young as to believe That everything is meant to be I watched TV tonight And replayed all the times I hesitated I feel too old for 23 But nothing's even happening Nothing's ever happening But I'll be fine I'm sure that I'll be fine Just not yet Turn the engine round Familiar roads are running down The valley in the rain I'm not so dumb as to believe That no one's ever cared for me I feel the water rise Forever's on my mind It isn't suicide to just give in But not just yet Just not yet